Do You Fight Substitute Wars?
You concentrate all your energy and focus on a project that is dear to you, yet you do know that your real dream is waiting and isn't pursued while you're heading towards exhaustion with your 99% goal.
Your 99% goal is probably your second dream, it is the one you would dare to dream and manifest if it wasn't for the first one. But your primary dream is almost a reality, in fact, it is already real and it has always been. Why don't you go for it?
Why is it that you fail to fulfill your purpose and instead work on plan B? I know for certain that you know your true purpose. You are aware of your sole purpose, yet you move towards something different. Yes, even a slight deviation from your very purpose means you eventually end up completely off track.
Is it possible that your true purpose is too hard to follow? Is it too much work? Is there too much resistance? Do you perceive too much opposition?
Is your hedonism too strong? Yes, hedonism, as in whatever causes pleasure is right. Even if nobody but yourself knows about it, it is still hedonism, it's the easy way -- your easy way.
While it is of paramount importance that you strive to do everything possible to feel good, for your well-being, obviously -- you even more so have to feel good to be congruent with what you potentially can be. Your feeling good is an expression of your true self.
Do not confound the means and the tools with the results. The result of every project is not pleasure. Instead, pleasure is the indicator that you are on the right track. Pleasure is not an end in itself. You can even turn it around and recognize, whenever pleasure presents itself as a goal, that you have to refocus as soon as possible to avoid losing sight of your original goal.
Your 99% goals are your substitute wars that look like peacekeeping missions, compared to the battles you are currently not facing and not fighting. If you would only work on that big one, all other dreams would take care of themselves.
Even if your hedonism feels like hard work, unlike other people's hedonism -- do not succumb to it, however sweet and seducing it may present itself, for it is clouding and altering the real you.


